Joy, David, Jonathan, and Hope
Today, a year ago, we lost the last four babies. Of course, the two in pink are (from left to right) Joy and Hope, and then next is David and then Jonathan. At this point in our journey things had become more and more of a blur. Thankfully, I had an epidural to go through laboring and not be in as much pain. The two days leading into this time, we really thought things were hopeful for these four because there was way more room in my uterus and the pictures in ultrasound showed them staying up high and moving a lot! I remember thinking, there is hope that things would slow down, and I just needed to be ok with being in the bed for the remainder of the time. But late on Saturday night, we had an ultrasound that showed they all were starting to drop and that we would be preparing for delivery once again. Just recently, Allen told me he remembered seeing that ultrasound and thinking things were not going to be good and we could possibly be losing all of the babies! Sure enough, into the night labor sped up and the first girl was born, then a few hours later the two boys came right together, and then within a couple of hours the last girl was born-Hope. There are really no words to describe this time. I unfortunately do not have good memories of holding these four, because I was physically in such bad shape. It wasn’t until we took pictures later in the day that I held those four and the other two all together. I couldn’t believe it was all over!
I will add a few more experiences from this time in the next couple of days, as well as a few more reflections and things from people. I hope these stories of these babies have given some of you that read this more of an idea of this time in our lives. God was there through it all, he wrapped His arms around us, and continues to carry us.
Psalm 46
“1God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble.
2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
3 though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with their surging.
Selah
4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God,
the holy place where the Most High dwells.
5 God is within her, she will not fall;
God will help her at break of day.
6 Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall;
he lifts his voice, the earth melts.
7 The LORD Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.
Selah
8 Come and see the works of the LORD,
the desolations he has brought on the earth.
9 He makes wars cease to the ends of the earth;
he breaks the bow and shatters the spear,
he burns the shields with fire.
10 “Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.”
11 The LORD Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress. ”
Selah
8 Responses to “Joy, David, Jonathan, and Hope”
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You don’t know me, but I’ve been following your blog for post of the past year. I just wanted to tell you how honored I am that you shared your sweet pictures of the babies. So precious, exactly the way God made them.
I can read and tell that you are healing as you type. What an journey you and Allen have been on. WE continue to pray for you as we remember their birthdays and celebrate that you saw Jesus in each of their perfect faces.
Beth
I heard your story from a friend of a friend of a friend & have had you on my heart since your loss last year. It is so uplifting to feel the healing in your words & see the way you honor your little ones. I am so happy you have those wonderful portraits. When we lost our babies it was too early to do that & I always wished I had something (anything) to hold on to. GOD BLESS YOU. I will continue to pray for your healing & an extremely healthy pregnancy. You will always remember your first babies, mine would be graduating this year.
You don’t know me, but I’ve been following your blog for post of the past year. I just wanted to tell you how honored I am that you shared your sweet pictures of the babies. So precious, exactly the way God made them.
You don’t know me, but I’ve been following your blog for post of the past year. I just wanted to tell you how honored I am that you shared your sweet pictures of the babies. So precious, exactly the way God made them.
I can read and tell that you are healing as you type. What an journey you and Allen have been on. WE continue to pray for you as we remember their birthdays and celebrate that you saw Jesus in each of their perfect faces.
Beth
You don’t know me, but I’ve been following your blog for post of the past year. I just wanted to tell you how honored I am that you shared your sweet pictures of the babies. So precious, exactly the way God made them.
You don’t know me, but I’ve been following your blog for post of the past year. I just wanted to tell you how honored I am that you shared your sweet pictures of the babies. So precious, exactly the way God made them.