Little Reflection on the week so far…
“…and we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.” Romans 5: 2-5
My lifegroup is studying the book of Romans and we were talking about Chapter 5 last night, and I really am constantly encouraged by this first part. God’s plan is so much bigger than my little human mind and what I conform my thoughts to, and just knowing how He constantly changes me, I pray there are so many others that He is drawing to Himself. In these verses when I think about the HOPE Jesus gives, it makes me think about the last little girl I delivered, Hope. Hope, I cling to it constantly, and I pray that through our suffering someone else received and is receiving Hope in God. God is teaching me daily, and I wake up in the morning relying on His strength fully.
Monday, I went to the doctor and good news…yeah yeah!!! My HCG level was down to 10 from 28, not far from zero. I don’t have to go back for two weeks. Dr. Gregg also told me I could slowly start exercising, which makes me very happy. He also was very encouraging to Allen and I about what we are going through, and how sorry he is and feels very connected to our family. Then, Renie and I went for a little walk Monday afternoon (I didn’t waste any time!). I also plan to go back to work on the 15th, which will be here before I know it!
Yesterday, with the help of some friends, I started going through things in the nursery. It was a weird balance of emotions, partly wanted to go through things, but at the same time not wanting things to be over! There are things I packed away to save, things I was able to give away, and things I tried to organize to return…so it is coming along. The harder realization was loading up diapers and wipes from Megan’s, I had no idea how many we really had until they were all in the car, but I was able to take a lot of them to the Crisis Pregnancy Center today. They were very appreciative, and they do some really great things there that we are honored to be able to contribute towards. Just as I was leaving a lady had made a decision to not abort her baby and was headed to an appointment for an ultrasound of her baby, Go God!!
This afternoon, had a great lunch with a friend from Greenville, Jennifer and she helped me take some things back to Baby’s R Us, and the lady that helped us made things really easy for me thankfully. This will all be a process, but glad I have been able to gradually start.
Headed to Fountain Inn this weekend for Easter..more to come soon
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Sounds like you are getting stronger every day! I KNEW YOU WOULD!
I’m so excited to see you soon at work and hopefully for lunch or cleaning or another project. I’m here for you both, always!
LOVE YOU!
MP
Very upbeat post! Glad that you’re doing better.
I am so glad for the strength that God has giving you and for you being so strong . May God continue to give you strength and peace each and every day. Bless both of you at thi s Easter time.
Hi There, I found your blog through kelly’s korner and have been following along…praying, your faith is breath taking…I am sorry for what you are going through……I wish you both all the best…I love how you said… “Go God” your so right!
With love, Marie
so thankful that God is meeting you where you are.. giving you this study, your friends, and even nice people at Babies R Us just when you need it.
Thanks for continuing to keep us updated so that we can know how to pray for you guys.
Thank you for your post. I know from experience that this is all a long process…..day by day with God’s strength and help! You’re an inspiration to me and I love the verse in Romans that you posted! What a great reminder of why we are on this earth and that some day we will be in heaven with our babies again! What happens here is just temporary and all the hurt and pain will be over before we know it! So much better things are to come and will be eternal!! :0) God bless you and your family! I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers! Betsy
Still praying for you two! So glad to hear that you are doing well – please keep us posted!
Hey Courtney,
I know God is going to continue to strengthen you and Allen daily! I praise God that you are able to see His glory in all of this! I pray you continue to heal! Much love to you!
It is so great to hear how strong you are. God is definitely working hard in your life and I am proud of how you are doing. Continue to stay strong and prayerful. Great things are on the way for you and Allen.
Brandy
You’re such an inspiration. Go God is right!
Cxx
Thinking of you two often and praying for continuing improvements to your health. Come out to the country to see us soon!!!
Love you lots,
Ben and Suzanne
Courtney and Allen- My sister is in the hospital in pre-term labor and I could not sleep so I decided to catch up on facebook. I saw your website there and decided to check it out.Wow what perfect timing. Thank you for sharing your story, reminding me that God is in controll and He knows what is happening at this very moment. He’s holding baby Reagan in His hands He knows the begining and the end, no need to fear. So yes Courtney God has been golrified. I am so sorry for your loss and pain. You both will be in my prayers. Thank you again for sharing your life and the lifes of your children. You and they are such a blessing. God Bless! Sara
I just had a quick question. Will you not be having or trying for any more children? Since your getting rid of everything i was just curious. Glad you are getting stronger!
Thank you Courtney for coninuing to share your story which is a Testimony. I continue to pray for you & Allen, I also continue to share your website, because I know the Lord is using you in a mighty way & people are being reached for Jesus. God Bless, have a great Easter in Ft. Inn.
My cousin (Tifany Sizemore O’Neal) told me of your story early on and I have been checking your blog often. I lost a son in 2007 at birth and cannot imagine the heartache of losing six little ones. But I praise the Lord alongside with you – especially at your latest post – I can imagine that it was written through some hot tears, but with a heart that knows that God knows what’s best and I am so thankful to see your trust in Him displayed so quickly after losing your little ones. Thank you for keeping up this blog and please know that you are in my prayers often.
Just read this and wondered if you did indeed go back to work today! Hope it didn’t have to be all day! I keep posted on you through Laura B. Lov’n you guys from Ft. Inn!!